This is just to fill a spot in my journals. I need to update more often.

Uhhhh...life fails. I hate my mom's boyfriend, I want a fucking job....


So

nothing new

I love Ponats though |D

EDIT: OH I am gonna try doing this again


1. What's in a name?
2. Smile
3. I caught fire
4. Free-falling
5. Reach for it
6. Heartbreak
7. Feel the love
8. Ignorance is bliss
9. Decay
10. Infinity
11. Sky is the limit
12. Beauty
13. Venom
14. Secrets
15. Darkness
16. Peace and quiet
17. Insomnia
18. Color
19. Night
20. Comfort
21. Music
22. Starry-eyed surprise
23. Mirror
24. Aquarium
25. Beyond the stars
26. Abstract
27. Family
28. Frustration
29. A moment's rest
30. Conformity
31. POP!
32. A pirate's life
33. Every rose has thorns
34. Tainted
35. Intimacy
36. Perfection
37. Guardian
38. Riches
39. Dance, dance
40. Ice cold
41. Deep sleep
42. The beginning
43. Cat and mouse
44. So far away
45. Silence
46. Explosion of emotion
47. Straight jacket
48. Innocence
49. Simplicity
50. Motion in the ocean
51. Warmth
52. Enchanted
53. Lush forest
54. Fly
55. Dead
56. Bleeding
57. Balloons
58. Escape
59. Man on the moon
60. Halloween
61. So cute!
62. Group picture
63. Fire and ice
64. Nightmare
65. Flirt
66. Zodiac
67. You're being watched...
68. Lost
69. Fight!
70. 7 Deadly Sins
71. OH SHI--
72. Waking up
73. Bubbles
74. Terror
75. Dragon
76. No.
77. Rivalry
78. Bite
79. Awkward
80. Caught off-guard
81. Heavenly
82. Hide and seek
83. Walk away
84. Victory!
85. Smoking
86. Confidence
87. Something new
88. Bad luck
89. Winter
90. A fond memory
91. Teddy-bear
92. Spirals
93. Dynamic
94. Sweet
95. Time
96. Glutton
97. Words unspoken
98. Dizzy
99. Upside-down and backwards
100. Game over.


Stories with each of these as a theme. C: Wish me luck.

So I'm 19 years old today. I'm quite happy about it. I get birthday cupcakes! OuO

And I already got a few gifts. BlazBlue from my lovely Ponats (Which in my opinion is the most romantic thing anyone has ever done for me... :3 so <3333333 ). GTA4 from my mom's boyfriend (twas weird), and Repo! the Genetic Opera from my friend Steve.


I'm happeh. C:


Nonetheless I'm mostly gonna end up bumming around today. Have my birthday dinner, get excited for the party I planned next weekend.

EDIT: The date says October 19th but I did this on October 18th....stupid DA

So one of my very good friends is moving. And the only way I'll get to see her is if she comes up here, or I find a way down there. (And the only way I'd be able to get down there is if I go to Texas and see my family first...and then find someone to take me :c)

Naturally I'm a little upset, I'm trying not to let it get to me too much but I've already shed a few tears here and there. x.x So to those whom are gonna talk to me personally, I'm apologizing right now if I get a little snippy.

Speaking of I noticed that instead of outright crying, like I used to, when something is bothering me I tend to just get very on edge and angry. I'm not sure how this change came about I just know that's how it is now.

Ah well. Wish me luck in keeping sane. x.x

So, today I spent all day working on getting my room clean and helping out with setting up the garage sale we're having tomorrow. True to my nature only about 3 things we're selling is actually mine. I'm too much of a pack rat, that and most of my possessions are more personal things I'd rather not sell.

More about my life, two guys like me. Two, now what in the world do I do to deserve this? Hell if I know. I'm just being myself and people tend to fall all over me, yet the one girl I want to love me, won't and on top of that doesn't find me attractive. D': So I doubt I'll have a chance with her...ever. -shrug- Not the first time I've been disappointed in life and it won't be the last.

Had a argument with a friend recently about her boyfriend whom I'm not fond of, so that was awkward while it lasted, but now I'm just "angry" (aka not really mad at her) for the ending she set up for a roleplay we finished last night. Big hint, she pulled a Stewie on that episode where he "killed Lois". I'm pissed but at the same time I want to laugh.

Moving on I want to be more independent, and that means moving out, and moving out means getting a job and finding an apartment, as well as a roommate so I'm not overwhelmed with life in general. Wheeeee

To the guy.

Fuck you.

No fucking means no.

Stop fucking up mine and her life.

Leave us alone.

Go the FUCK AWAY.