Agggghhh....my life sort of fails on me right now.


I lied.

It fails...a LOT.

It allll started when my mom went to give birth to Evalyn,my baby half-sister, I was grumpy thinking about my mother's douchebag boyfriend :

Then only a night or so after my mother got hospitalized for blood clots in her lungs. x.x

I'm not sure what came first afterwards, both My nana and close friend going to have surgery on the same day.

Or my heart being broken into tiny pieces because I always fall for the wrong people.

I'll explain the first since it's easier. My Nana had to go get her shoulder fixed and then that night after the surgery she was in so much pain she had to go back to the hospital. Basically, the hospital fucked up. This is nothing new though.

My friend went to have her wisdom teeth pulled, not biggie things went smoothly.

NOW for the heartbreak.

I'll explain this as simple as possible.

I have a friend in Utah, I've been talking to her for two years, at some point I fell for her. She not only doesn't feel the same way (yet. In her words there's still hope yet.), but she would give me a chance if I was able to visit her. I don't have the cash though. On top of all this she's wanting to date this fucking ASSHOLE only because he can go see her! It's not fair....not that life and love is ever fair to me. People I don't want like me.

People I want don't like me.

Or something happens to fuck it all up. Sometimes I wonder if I'm destined to never be loved.

But, true to my nature, I'm not letting this shit stop me...I'm still planning on dating people. I want to date a female because all the males I know are....no. Shitload of verbal abuse by one who claimed to be my best friend has pretty much ruined it for you guys, sorry.

Let's just hope it actually works out for me for once in my goddamned life.